Doechii - ALLIGATOR BITES NEVER HEAL

[Outro]

You gotta understand, the path that you going on, everybody can't go

And you can't take everybody where you're going

You remember I used to talk to about the story about Abraham and Lot

And how he wanted to take Lot with him?

Everybody can't go where you're going

"You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed"

It's not tech-related, but I'm sharing for two reasons:

• If someone digs this far to get into my business or discern whether I'm authentic or not, you deserve it. 😂 Thanks for reading my blog; it's definitely a weird one.
• It feels better to "publicly" announce something that has cut me so deep; that's the creative writing professional trying to resurface.

My long-time partner of 4 years and I broke up. I'm pretty devastated but also relieved.

There are plenty of recovering people-pleaser heavy givers like me, and we owe it to ourselves to really dig deep and ask, "Do you have the cognitive ability to stand up for yourself? If your partner is focused on conflict and not repair, do you even want to be a part of this?"

I think I "left the garden better than I found it" for him in a lot of ways.

Years ago I also left something probably better than this when I got divorced, so this Karmatic retribution and slap in the face came at a time in which I needed a huge wake-up call. My life feels at its lowest on paper, but I feel mentally stronger than ever. That's just sometimes how this works.

As for tech (because hellooooo, back to me and the potential I have for success) I'm taking the second half of the Comptia+ Core 2 exam this month. Comptia A+ is the GED of IT, but I'm still proud of myself and thankful for programs like Per Scholas in a period of my life where it feels like I have no structure and nothing to lose. Rather than "having nothing," I will try my best while I'm healing to think of this as a clean slate-- a period of life where anything is possible.